I’ve long been a mynah bird, blending in, imitating the call and behaviour of those around me, whether among artists, blue or white collar folks. I’m an actor and an ambivert — someone who can navigate cocktail parties, chat with strangers and smile like I’m in my element. Then I collapse with exhaustion for days after.
Most people assume actors are extroverted. Many are, but far more are introverted, deeply connected to their inner world, struggling with impostor syndrome. I suppose I ‘play a role’ when I find myself among strangers. Now that I no longer drink, I can’t lean on boozy boisterousness to get through. That was one of the hardest parts of socially reintegrating myself. I had to figure out how I wanted to show up.
I am more myself now. Quiet, contemplative, listening deeply. At times, energized and actively engaged when the conversation warrants. Context is everything, and I increasingly allow myself to show up as I feel.
How do you show up in social situations?